2013 January 1 (Tuesday) : A Conversation with God

There was a time where I read seven books about a conversation.  These books were a challenge to me, for it stirred something in my heart, a longing, a yearning.  I read in the pages of those books of a simple conversation that NDW said he had with God and it started me on a journey which I am still on, for all of us are on a journey to the place that the Lord knows, for the Lord knows the end from the beginning.

There was another time later on where I attended a book burning.  Now there are those in my family that say books should never be burned, that books contain writings of opinions and one opinion is as valid as another and book burnings are simply wrong.  After all, people like fascists and communists burn books.  I remember at the book burning that I attended there was a tearing feeling in my heart.  I had digitized seven books of this conversation and I had picked up a perspective from this conversation certain ways of thinking that I see now are misleading. I now have nothing in my heart against NDW or his books, for I feel in my heart that the Lord had a plan for me through all of this.  Jesus has told me to forgive, and I have forgiven and in my heart I know NDW has as much right to an eternal relationship with the Lord as much as any seeker. 

As I have written before, I used to feel the Lord was random and I don’t anymore.  In 1Cor13:12 the apostle Paul wrote “For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.”  I feel the same way, I feel that I knew certain things then, but I know more now, yet I know that I still have more to know.  In the pages of the seven books, there arose certain questions in my mind that I feel the Lord is answering for me now, for now seems to be in His timing.  For He of course knows the end from the beginning.  THAT is something that NDW didn’t know then, but perhaps knows now.

At the book burning, there was a princess who reminds me of Snow White.  A gentle hearted beauty, a woman of God, a woman of integrity who I saw from the first time I met her had her own conversation with God that continued every day.  This intrigued me greatly, for I could not deny her conversation with God was very real, for I saw her commitment, I saw her struggles in her life and I watched her and her family and her God not only prevail against these struggles, but I saw God come through for her in ways that He did not seem to do for many others.  I remember a time when I stood dumbfounded in Snow White’s cottage as she got ready to go to the airport with her best friend on a journey that included a cruise on the Queen Mary Cruise ship.  I remember a time before this that I sat with Snow White and her best friend at a table next to a swimming pool and listened as she told me of this journey and the KNOWING in her heart that the journey would take place.  I remember a time that Snow White had returned from this journey with perhaps a couple of thousand pictures of this journey and I KNEW in my own heart that this princess had her own conversation with God happening.  She still does today.  She spoke of blessing upon blessing from the Lord, daily blessings, – upgrades from economy into business class kind of blessings because she KNEW that God had her back.  After now having experienced my own first upgrade from economy into business class, I feel I know a little more of what Snow White knows.  I feel I now am at last experiencing that real kind of conversation with God that Snow White has demonstrated to me since the day I first met her.

I also remember a time when I sat with Snow White next to another swimming pool and she explained to me in her own words the yearning I felt in my own heart for my princess but did not know it yet.  She spoke of my pursuit of my princess and how nothing else in this world would compare to it.  She explained how there is nothing at this time in the House of Stone that holds me here, but that it was possible to pursue my princess with every fiber of my being for she knew what the Lord has put in the heart of man.  She was right.  She placed a dream in my heart that has now been fulfilled and yet continues to be fulfilled, for I awake every day and I see the vestiges of the three most beautiful weeks of my life and a changed life still around me.  A bracelet that encircles my wrist the way my princess holds my heart.  A case on the floor that took my belongings to a slice of heaven they call Rockton, Illinois.  A journal of the best time in my life that continues to grow.

For that, Princess Snow White, and your wonderful example to me, for showing me what real friendship looks like, I will eternally grateful.  Now I can show my own princess, as I have even started to do, what true friendship looks like, what real relationship looks like.  I have at last, started a real Conversation with God.